Oh dear

Here we go again. Despite trying my hardest and using all the coping skills I've learnt, depression is back on the scene. Big time. I feel totally beaten and exhausted with trying to fight it, all to no avail. Externally I am still and quiet. Internally my mind is reeling, bouncing from fear to anger to despair. I've tried to behave "normally" and conceal the turmoil, I'm rather good at this.
 I've shared my despair with my poor long-suffering husband, I have no idea how he can keep supporting me through this misery. I would leave my mind behind and run for the hills if it were possible.  I feel broken and a failure.

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